my cousin blogg

Hi bro,
he...3x, i opened your blog, http://www.jacatra.com/jblog
hmm ..... i read one of your teenage revenge post (he...3X)
teenage and youth time, yeah ......
hopefully i can visit you one day.
take care,

left behind notes on August

Last Friday on August 3, my father asked me whether I would like to come visiting his friend. I said yes I would love too. So briefly we went to “high land” up there. Soon we met my father’s friend. He is a nice old man, humble, down to earth person, he doesn’t show he is a wealthy person. Once again I learn hard work, determination, humble, priorities, put aside bitterness, patient, wisdom, etc. (i would better stop here because the rest of the lesson is so political about my beloved country where i have been lived, i don't want to write much about this)

Last three days from August 3 (honestly the whole July)I didn’t sleep well, typing, thinking, reevaluating, some of memories in the past passing by. This evening as usual I accompanied my mom for her singing rehearsal. I was very sleepy, I slept in public transportation.(he..he…he I always sleep in public trans. Such as bus, train, MRT (i don't care, people stared at me, i need to close my eyes, guys), small car, bajaj, becak (human carriage, carriage driven by male) or delman (we call horse carriage in Indonesia by delman), yes I do, I easily sleep when my body and mind exhauted) Along the way to destination – from and back home, my heart was empty, something missing, I didn’t know why, something incomplete. Gee I felt so guilty to my self. Btw I met some work mate, from my previous office. Three handsome guys, hmmm… they are friendly person (ha…ha…. They will be big headed when they read this J ) and I remembered a couple weeks ago I met pak Jonku (stand for Joni kumis (moustache Joni, hi…hi…J )

I missed them so much, my work mates.

Btw I remembered that last month and some week in this August, I have thought of this boy, this boy is cracking; he has bitterness that has not healed. He kept it that way, felling lonely among crowdies (I had ever felt this, sometimes till now), he doesn’t want to be healed or trying to heal by self. A little bit stubborn, I have to say (hello, looks who is talking, hmm….) I just can pray the best for this boy. Hopefully my intuition was not wrong.

August 14, 2007

For 3 days I was in lembang bandung west java, joining a fun and fearless activities. Yup running away from headache he…he…he….

Not engage with an institution yet (some potential firms and excepting me to work with them, I refused politely, my heart&mind hasn’t settled yet, still confuse) , after resigned because of helping my father and brother and taking a short course (or am I running away from commitment, hmmm….). Taking time to aside from routine really make my mind back to sense. Yeah so for years I’ve been fooled my mind. Ho…ho…ho…. Get enlightment now, hopefully.